I am sitting in my bed eating a huge bowl of hudsonville cookies and cream ice cream thinking it won't be very long that I can eat like this!!!! So yes I am still pregnant, praise the Lord! I'm so sorry I haven't posted anything lately,our house got struck with lightening and have had no internet. My kids got out board games to play with this week with lots of complaints and wondered how Mike and I survived without the Internet when we were young. Were so bored-I can't hear it one more time or I am going to scream!!!!
Well the last few weeks have been challenging. Tomorrow it will be 2 weeks since our last meal was brought in and then Mike was out of town 5 out of the 7 days and it has been just so stressful. I have no one to depend on so who has to do it me, so I did tell my doctor a week and a half ago that there is NO way to be on bed rest, she is not happy with me, but really what am I suppose to do. Mike travels for a living and has really tried to hold off traveling for the last 10 weeks and has so we've been very fortunate for that, but he has to do what he has to do to provide for us and my family is near nonexistence. So I have been moody, stressed,overwhelmed,etc....My hormones are flaring, my poor boys!!!!! I think it's just the fact that more and more is out of my control, and I hate to be out of control!!!!
So NST are going good,dr said we have a happy baby. It has such a low heartbeat,it sometimes scares me. I'm continuing to gain weight, I think I just eat so much now because I can, even if I am not hungry,I have an excuse. I go to dr every Tuesday and Friday pretty much and every visit I gain another pound. The doctor every visit is surprised I have made it this far, really so am I. She checked me Friday and said I'm not dilated at all, which is crazy considering the last 3 I have been at a 4 at or before 4 months along and with my last they sewed me up and now with this one nothing? I was so surprised and even a little disappointed. 1-4 is the longest, I usually have a head start when I go in. Bailey literally was an 94 minutes from 1 st contraction to delivery, I'm getting scared and nervous....
So I went to post this and half of my post was gone so I'll try again, just my luck lately.
So the dr gave us a few choices. We can deliver at 37 weeks if they do an amnio and the lungs are developed or not do amnio and get induced on the 29th. But she said with the amnio since it's a vulnerable womb it's a catch 22, it could not be good to do one also. So what do we do? My doctor here and gr consulted and both said I could try to do a vaginal birth. But I need to be mentally prepared to have a csection. If at anytime I start bleeding heavy there going to do csection. So do we schedule a csection or try a vaginal? We don't know, we need to think about it and let her know when we know. I mean what if we don't do the amnio at 37 weeks and the placenta tears apart from the wall and the baby dies at 37 weeks and 4 days, we'll forever regret not having it done and by then our baby would have died and we live with that regret forever. I just don't know, I just don't know what the right thing to do is. Both the doctors did say that my water could break at any time because of the blood dripping onto it for the last 9 months has made it week. So anytime I guess we could have a baby. She thinks 36 weeks it will break, thats in like 3 days, definitely not ready. Still need a lot of stuff...
On a positive note I have only been spotting for the last week, no major bleeding, which could be good or bad, but I'll keep thinking it's good.
I want to thank you all again, I feel like we were just 24 weeks and now 10 days from full term. Thank you God!!!!! We could not have done it without all of your prayers!!! It is truly a miracle this baby and my body have hung on this far. So thank you again and please continue to pray for a healthy baby and mama. Love you all and I hope you all have a great week and I'll try to keep you updated...
I did originally put a lot more information and details about my doctor reports, but I'm exhausted so maybe next time, sorry....and good night!!!!
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